Secrets

Secrets

I like keeping secrets.
It makes me feel safe.

I've want to runway, and maybe this time I might be able to do it.
I am old enough to move out my mother's house, the problem is if I have the strength to face this cruel world.
But there's this voice saying to me that I should it, or else I won't be able to make my dreams come true.
And I know my mother will not allow it, unless I secretly runaway.

I've had secret love affairs.
I always had...
From odd to more serious love stories that no one will ever know.
Too many hearts are broken, both mine and theirs.
But still I fall in love so easily.
And there's this one person, a person who reached out his hand...
Now I think I will run away with him.

I've always kept my dreams to myself.
For the sake of being a good daughter for my family.
But now I don't want to live that life anymore.
My mother said I have stopped thinking about my future, that I have stopped going for my dreams.
But no!
When I runaway, the beginning towards my dreams and goals will start in motion.

But then what's keeping me from all of my dreams is myself.


I hate keeping secrets.
It makes me feel more alone.

Day 8, 9 & 10 of Mori Challenge

Lol! It's been almost a month since the last time I posted here. I've been on the rut and I'm trying to fix myself and get a new life. Hopefully the end of October, I'll be able to take care of everything and find work.
Anyway, just to kill time and to make up for the weeks lost....

Day 8 – 10 songs that inspire you for mori

Quelqu'un m'a dit

by Carla Bruni

I don't understand french but this is a relaxing but sad song.

Every Teardrop is A Waterfall

by Coldplay

My feel good song. Coldplay never seizes to impress me with their music and videos.

Sugar Town

by Zoey Deschanel

Love this artist, and this is just to sweet! 

Though there's no music video for this song, this stop motion is pretty cute. :)

To Binge

by Gorillaz ft. Yukimi Nagano

A really relaxing, beach-y song. 

To bad Gorillaz as not as popular as they used to. 

Yellow

by Coldplay

Beautiful song from an amazing band.

Never  Grow Up

 byTaylor Swift

A really sweet song. To bad Taylor Swift Don't usually do music videos on these type of songs.

Mushaboom

by Feist

A feel good song even though I don't really understand it even if  I google the lyrics. :P

Crazy good music video too! 

Between Two Lungs

by Florence + The Machine

I love this song, feels like falling in love.

The Dog Days Are Over

by Florence and The Machine

I prefer the 2008 version of the music video, but I can't find it :(

This song made her skyrocket and be able to perform with the big guns (mainstream artists)

considering she's an indie artist, and that's awesome!

Some Like You 

by Adele

Love, love love this song. Adele's voice is just pure magic.

As you can see I'm more into mainstream, I love listening to Lady Gaga but she doesn't inspire me about the nature and sweet simple things in life.

Also, first time writing a blog on the new layout, it kinda sucks actually. I can't see if my post is auto-saved and too much white can be blinding. Gonna learn about this new layout...

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Day 9 – 10 things you will never do in mori

Hmm... let me rephrase that.

Mori wont stop me from:

1. Being myself

2. Trying out other kinds of fashion

3. Not liking gardening... it's just... not my thing :(

4. Living in the city. Country living is nice, but the city is where you can easily find work.

5. Playing with make-up. Though personally, I'm not into make-up. I just like to 'play' with it sometimes.

Ok... I got nothing else to say :|

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Day 10 – What’s in your bag?

Sorry, no picture -_-;

1. Wallet

2. Cellphone

3. Tiny notebook for my things to-do list and other notes

4. Small Sketchbook, so I can do doodle when I'm bored

5. Pencil case w/ ballpen, pencil and eraser

6. Foldable umbrella

7. Compact mirror

8. Rubbing alcohol,

9. Cologne

10. Earphones

11. I don't usually bring this but for some reason I have a newspaper in my bag, hey I was bored and not in the mood to doodle. But yeah sometimes if my bag is big enough I bring a magazine or book so I won't get bored.

Ok that's it! I'll be lucky If I'm able to post again this or next week. I gotta fix myself first!

Bye for now! ;)

Day 6 and 7 of Mori Challenge

Oh my gosh! It's September already! Ugh!

Anyway, I'm lagging behind this Mori challenge because the next question is kinda hard to answer because I'm not really a mori girl, I'm just mori-inspired. Well whatevs~

Day 6 – 10 things you can’t live without in mori.

Like I said, I'm not a mori girl but these are the things that keep me mori-inspired.

1. My Dairy scrapbook. 

    Vanillery Garden suggested to do this (an online mori/self help class) so I could appreciate myself and my life. 

2. My Laptop

    My only source of mori information and other inspiration because I don't have any mori friends.

3. My cream and white (lacey) tops/dresses, or anything clothes that can be mori

    I only have a few mori-styled clothes but I love those clothes even before I started to like mori girl.

4. My late granma's old stuff.

    She left us a lot of vintage bags, laces, used stamps, pins, old styled sandals, and other things I could use for my scrapbook, and even for sewing (if only I have a sewing machine). I miss my granma. :(

5. Japanese Magazine Scans.

    I prefer SEDA over Spoon magazine even if it's the official Mori Magazines. I dunno, I find the clothes too unique in Spoon and not really applicable in everyday life. I want clothes that I could find on a regular store and make it mori style. 

6. Indie Rock Music

    Music is my mood setter, when I was into video games and mmorpgs, I prefer rock songs especially the 'emo' ones. When I became highly addicted to anime music, my playlist was filled with nothing but anime OST and japanese music. When I shifted to Lolita, I started to love visual kei and all the gory, screaming, cursing-like-no-tomorrow, kind of songs (I also started to like Lady Gaga, heheheh). Now that I like Mori girls, I prefer indie rock music, especially the laid back ones. The one thing that will never change is my life for Coldplay! <3

7.  A vintage or even faux-vintage accesories

     It's a great accent to more regular clothes! The good thing is vintage stuff are becoming popular again so they are not so hard to find anymore, even though they're not really vintage, heheh...

8. My wavy hair.

    I really have straight hair but last month I permed to create soft curls, now the curls have became big waves  which I like. The best thing about my curls is that they look natural compared to regular perming. Plus, I don't have to brush my hair everyday, now that's going au naturale! Lol!

9. Plants at our house

    Me and my mom are depressingly bad gardeners (at least my mom tries) but it's great that we still have plants in front of our house in this polluted city.

10. Travelling

    Sometimes for school, sometimes for family outings, I just want to travel anywhere, seeing mountains, bluer skies, new places...

I'm on top of the world... well not really.
It was foggy so no rice terraces pics :(

Day 7 – 10 people who inspire your mori style.

It's more of their lifestyle than the type of clothing that I'm inspired about from them.... Well here it goes...

Natalie
The one who created Vanillery Garden. Probably one of the best Mori Girls (for me)
on the net. She's more focused on the lifestyle and attitude than the style,
which is what I love. I do want to dress like a mori girl but I don't want to be superficial
and too focus on the material aspect of the lifestyle.

Valerie
One of the best watercolor illustrator here in Manila.
I don't think she's a mori girls since she seems to be a trend follower in terms of her fashion
but she is obviously mori-inspired with her love of pastel colors
and her style in painting.

Amanda
Not a mori girl, but definitely living a Mori girls' dream. To live near a forest,
surrounded by a handful of friends that you grew up with. Always dressing in old styled clothes,
living a simple life.
Though I doubt she really lives a simple life since she has the most massive following I'll ever feature here,
and she seems to go to the city once in a while for fashion updates, and such.

Chai
I think she's the only 'official' mori girl here in the Philippines.
I dunno much about her except she's also a fashion photography,
has lots of artsy friends,  and drinks too much coffee and milk tea! Lol!
So why does she inspire me? Well, even though she's not my ideal mori girl
she's kinda introduced me to the fashion.
I know some of her friends and they were following her blogs, so I followed it too
and started to fall in love with Mori girls.

Hayao Miyazaki
No he's no mori boy, he's just the greatest anime directors of all time!
What I love about his works is that it's always nature themed
especially the famous Totoro.
And although it's not mori related, I fricking love Lupin III!

Jessica
Not a mori girl, I don't think she even knows the term. Lol!
But her DIY blog is super awesome and I've always wanted to more crafty and such.
And her blog is a great opportunity to do so!

Gabrielle
A mori girl where I got the 30 Day Challenge.
Also one of the active members of the Mori girl Livejournal community,
which I don't follow, lol!

Zeruda
She's actually a lolita but keeps the mori girl community in myasianfashion.com alive.
It's nice to know someone who's not exactly mori girl but has a deep appreciation for the style.

Aileen
A mommy with a love for white. Her style is mori but I doubt if she even knows it.
I love her stories with her son's little adventures.
The way she tells her stories and the baby pics are just adorable!

Nicola
I absolutely know nothing about her but we have the same hobby,
collecting beautiful pictures in the internet.
and her blog is full of beautiful things.

As you can see, I have no popular japanese mori girls in my list. Yui Aoi doesn't really inspire me, she's more natural-kei than mori for me, so does Hagu (Honey and Clover).

Ok I'm done, thanks for reading!