Priorities

Gah!
Having a lot of accounts for different websites is a bad, bad idea!
Now my time will be eaten by these websites!


I always crave to learn and find something new, but of course there's this information overload. I cannot take in much of those beautiful blogs, crafts, DIY, fashion at one sitting. That's why I always avoided registering to Lookbook and I stopped using my Tumblr. I have so little time, and I should have less time on the internet and have a better lifestyle...

Then again, I've always been a computer person. Ever since a kid, I always been in front of the computer whether it's playing online games or social networking. It never affected my studies when I was in gradeschool and highschool. But now it became my escape, especially at college since your not really forced to be friends with others unlike high school. And because I hate my course a lot, I'm almost always in the internet because it's the only place that makes me happy.

But...

I have to make priorities.
I should be more focus on finishing my thesis, instead of roaming in the world wide web.
I should be doing more meaningful things for myself instead of reading on other people's achievements.
I should learn how to manage my time learn and not to procrastinate.

But I can't...

There's always this force that brings me down: my course, my thesis, my mom, our apartment... I dunno...
Sometimes I wish I was just a housewife so I would only worry about my family and the house... And have quality time for myself when they went off to school and work. But of course that doesn't work that way...

Back then I always thought that money will solve anything. I think that was my driving force that's why I always had good grades back when I was younger. But when I started college, reality hit me.
Money wasn't worth the pain of not doing what you love to do...

Sigh... Maybe this is just quarterlife crisis.

I've actually met some people who have this 'crisis'. They say once I get near 30, I will feel better about myself because I know myself more. And once you hit 40, you'll have a midlife crisis. Lol!

Anyway, I decided to shut down my tumblr completely. I know it's a good way to earn followers, but I really don't have anything to do with it. I don't blog for the fame and popularity. I blog as a way to express my interests, and hopefully be more motivated to do well in real life.

For now, I have to clean up the contents of my old laptop.